I went down an introspective route and began to think that in my walk with God, do I trust him? The Oxford Dictionary defines trust in different ways. Some of the best for me in the context of the study are, “firm belief in the reliability, truth, or ability of someone or something,” “allow someone to have, use, or look after (someone or something of importance or value) with confidence,” “have confidence; hope,” commit someone or something to the safekeeping of,” “have faith or confidence,” and “allow or give credit to someone.” Quite a lot right.
At the moment, an anchor scripture I am holding onto for a promise I am yet to see fulfilled is Hebrews 11:6, “And without faith, it is impossible to please God because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him.” So I guess the problem is not that I do not believe in God, because I do, praise God for that, but I do not believe or should I say that I am not fully convinced or struggling with is that he is a rewarder of them that diligently seek him part- I do not fully trust him.
Hmm, this enlightenment stunned me. How did I arrive at this? I am born again, right, Spirit-filled, right? Then what is with this battle of unworthiness or lack of trust in God.
There are times when I feel as though I deserve God’s blessings because I’ve been praying, fasting, and doing the “godly things.” I convince myself that if I follow the right practices, I will earn His favor. But then, other times, when I look at my life and reflect on my shortcomings, I feel unworthy of His blessings. This internal struggle is often rooted in a works-based mindset, one that makes me believe that God’s love and blessings are conditional upon my actions.
I’ve believed that God loves me because I seek Him—by reading the Bible, ministering to others, or doing works in His name. And, conversely, I’ve also fallen into the trap of thinking that if I don’t pray or carry out my religious practices “when I’m supposed to,” then perhaps God doesn’t truly see or love me. I have even wondered if my prayers are unanswered because of my failures or inconsistencies.
But this mindset is not what God desires for us. The truth is, God’s love for us is not based on our actions or performance. His love is unconditional. Romans 5:8 tells us, “But God demonstrates His own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.” God’s love and blessings are not earned through works, but freely given through grace.
It’s important to remember that our relationship with God is not about how much we “do” for Him, but about who He is and what He has already done for us. Our prayers are not unanswered because we haven’t “earned” His attention, but because He knows what we need, even when we don’t. He sees us as His beloved children, not based on our performance, but because of His love for us.
My new journey to seeing myself the way God sees me has begun. Spurred on by teachings and messages from Andrew Wommack Ministries (https://www.awmi.net/), I have began to understand the power and stability of God’s love for me. His teachings have helped me shift my perspective and realize that God’s love is not dependent on my actions, feelings, or circumstances. It’s unchanging, unconditional, and always available.
First, the bible says God is love, period- 1 John 4:7-21. What is love? The answer is very deep, but the bible describes God as love, so I guess my foundation has to be the pattern of God in the bible, his character, his words to me in the bible, and the Holy Spirit on the inside of me are what constitutes love. While my emotions and understanding can express love, they do not represent the entirety of God’s love. So when I feel unloved, or unaccepted because I have not fulfilled my religious obligations, the bible does not call that love but works, and my works cannot take me to heaven. Only faith in God can- Ephesians 2:8; Romans 3:20; Isaiah 64:6; Romans 8:8.
The Bible does tell us to do good works right? yes, but the good works we do is through Jesus in us and not necessarily by our own strength although we do participate too Galatians 5:16. We are meant to walk by the Spirit and by so doing we have the desire to sin less and less because we now have the incorruptible seed of Christ in us 1 John 3:9. This means we no longer make it a way of life to continue in a lifestyle that does not please God.
But what about the times that I act in an ungodly manner? Because the truth is that I act unchristianly too sometimes, so does it mean that he does not love me or condemns me when I am bad or I sin? Romans 5:6-8 tells us that even before I became born-again, Christ died for me, so how much more now that I am born again. Romans 8:1-2 also tells us emphatically that there is no longer any condemnation since we are in Christ Jesus. Nada, none whatsoever.
If this is true, then where is this feeling of condemnation coming from or the narrative that I need to be perfect in my works or be religious about the way I pray or read the bible to be accepted coming from? The Bible tells us that we have an enemy, Satan- John 10:10. And this enemy comes only to steal, kill, and destroy us. The enemy is out to steal, kill and destroy my joy and confidence so I do not trust God or trust him whole heartedly.
We also have a conscience, which plays a significant role in guiding us. I enjoy a website, GotQuestions.org, which has an insightful article on conscience. They describe conscience as “that part of the human psyche that induces or convinces of mental anguish and feelings of guilt when we violate it, and feelings of pleasure and well-being when our actions, thoughts, and words conform to our value systems”(https://www.gotquestions.org/conscience.html).
Our conscience is a gift from God, as highlighted in Proverbs 20:27, which says, “The human spirit is the lamp of the Lord that sheds light on one’s inmost being.” This means that our conscience is a tool God uses to help us discern what is right and wrong. When we align our actions with our values, our conscience gives us peace, but when we deviate, guilt can follow.
But does this mean that God uses our conscience to condemn us? While our conscience does convict us when we stray, God does not condemn us. Instead, our conscience should serve as a guide to point us back to God. In Christ, we are no longer condemned, but rather convicted by the Holy Spirit, who leads us toward righteousness, grace, and repentance.
Also, our conscience, shaped by the culture we were raised in and the value system we’ve adopted, may judge or condemn us based on those influences. Our conscience can sometimes bring fear and condemnation, which leads us to attempt handling things on our own, relying on works. However, this doesn’t bring about a clean conscience.
Furthermore, while our conscience may seem right in condemning us at times, the Bible tells us in 1 John 3:20-24: “If our conscience condemns us, we know that God is greater than our conscience, and He knows everything. And so, my dear friends, if our conscience does not condemn us, we have courage in God’s presence. We receive from Him whatever we ask, because we obey His commands and do what pleases Him. ”
The solution is to bring it to the Lord for help, and He will guide us. Even in areas where we feel reluctant to surrender, God knows how to work within us, helping us to willingly give our all to Him. The Bible says that if any man is in Christ, he is a new creation, living under the rule of Jesus Christ in a new kingdom. While our conscience may have served as a good guide before we came to Christ, in Christ, we have something even better—the Holy Spirit.
The Bible also tells us that we have the Holy Spirit in us to comfort, guide, and chastise us, he on other hand, never condemns us. For we are no longer condemned, the bible says we have been made righteous in Christ. Romans 5:1 puts it very well- “Therefore, since we have been made righteous through his faithfulness, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ.”
Through the Holy Spirit, we no longer need to rely solely on a conscience shaped by human values and culture. Instead, we have the Spirit of God to guide us in truth, convict us, and assure us that we are living in union with Him.
Does this mean our conscience is invalid? No, our conscience is still valid, but it needs to be aligned with the Holy Spirit. When we do so, we are freed from the weight of condemnation. The Holy Spirit is not here to condemn us but to guide us, to help us correct our mistakes, and to lead us into righteousness. If we feel condemned or unsure about something, we should take it to Him. The good news is that the Holy Spirit treats us with love and compassion, never condemnation. His guidance softens our hearts and leads us to a place where we can surrender our habits and desires to Him. He becomes our judge, seeing us as righteous through His love and grace.
The book of Romans 8: 31-35 explain this very well, it says that “ What then shall we say to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us? 32 He who did not spare his own Son but gave him up for us all, how will he not also with him graciously give us all things? 33 Who shall bring any charge against God’s elect? It is God who justifies. 34 Who is to condemn? Christ Jesus is the one who died—more than that, who was raised—who is at the right hand of God, who indeed is interceding for us. 35 Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or danger, or sword?
This passage reassures us that God is on our side and that nothing—no fear, no condemnation, no challenge—can stand against us when we are in Christ. Fear and condemnation may try to creep in, but as believers, we are justified by God’s grace, not by our works.
Join me in silencing fear in your life, knowing that we can bring everything to God, and He will help us—not with condemnation, but with love and guidance. He works in us in ways only He knows because He is our Creator and knows exactly what we need. We can trust that His love will never fail, and nothing can separate us from it.
If you have yet to make Jesus the Lord of your life, remember that God loves us with an everlasting love and is drawing you to Himself with His loving kindness. Today, He is calling you to draw near to Him. If you hear His voice, do not hesitate or pull back, but allow yourself to be drawn to the Savior of your soul.
Accept His love today and be saved, for there is only condemnation for those who turn away (Hebrews 10:38-39). Don’t wait, for today is the day of salvation. I love you and God bless. Feel free to reach out, I am always happy to hear from you.
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